Some days I’d seriously like a do-over. Oh, to just be able to crawl back into bed, pull the covers up over my face, close my eyes and start again would be ideal. Sometimes, out of stress, aggravation and/or discouragement I’d opt to give the day another go. As one who’s a stay at home mom, fitness instructor, blogger and marketing director for my significants other’s several businesses some days the to-do list just doesn’t seem to ever end. It can be overwhelming at times to wear so many hats and really succeed in EVERY one of them simultaneously. There are many times I find myself overflowing with some of those hard-to-handle emotions.
I’d like to be able to say I can wear each one of those hats and look effortless but on many days I’m lucky if I can pull off just one seamlessly. (If I do you can rest assured I’m happily dancing around as proud and as accomplished as I can be.) It’s a lot to live up to, by my own standards, to be able to excel in all areas of my life. To be able to make the last tiny checkmark on my “to-do” list at the end of the day and to go to bed at night without thinking of all the things I DIDN’T get to and what I have to do tomorrow would feel like a dream…I’d imagine. Not only living up to my own standards but to everyone else’s as well.
I know, I know, I can hear you saying, “It doesn’t matter what anyone else thinks!”, and yes you’re absolutely right. Regardless of that being true, we all do still aim to be good and good enough for others’ standards, too. As human beings we often seek outward approval, it’s just part of our nature. To be enough not only for yourself but for others of importance in your life if, whether we recognize it or not, is something we all try for.
I look at my SO and my daughter and I only want to do my very best at being both a great partner and a great mom. I work hard at making sure my daughter’s needs are always met, getting all of the things done around the house, answering emails, cooking meals, creating marketing material for the businesses, posting new content to my blog and planning my fitness classes all while trying not to lose sight of myself and my own needs. Trying to stay on top of myself in that I, you know, feel good on the inside as well as the outside doesn’t always take top priority. Thusly, can negatively effect how I feel toward myself as a goal-getter.
Although we constantly try to be the best at each and every thing we do, because we can be ever so hard on ourselves, we often fail to see that we actually already are doing just that. Each step you make, every effort you put in, each day you choose to keep on trying is actually progress being made. Even if the progress is ever so slight. When it counts the most are the days when you’d like to crawl back into bed and cash in on that re-do but instead you choose not to throw in the towel out of frustration, that’s the teeny tiny bit of progress that’s hard to see. No, it’s not always a walk in the park, there are times when you’re aggravated, discouraged, hurt, feel like you’ve failed and can’t seem to find the motivation to keep trying, but you must. It’s important to realize that this moment in which you feel all of those things is just that, a moment. It will pass like every other one and that will be that, you’ll have made it through. You’ll be a step closer to your goals, a step closer at wearing ALL of those hats seamlessly, a step closer to really seeing that you are enough and capable of balancing all that is laid out in front of you simply because you chose to keep on going.
It’s not always easy to find the courage to try again, and again, but like anything, nothing worthwhile comes easy. That applies to anything in life. It all comes with handwork, determination, strength and the ability to see your worth. Wearing many hats, including that of “mom” and “partner” gives me the power to strive for greatness because it’s not just about me. Being able to be the best version of myself for my family fuels me with the motivation and perseverance I need to be okay with not getting a re-do, to be okay in the moment matter what that moment hands me, to be okay feeling as though my efforts aren’t showing results right away, to be okay with an unfinished “to-do” list and to be okay if I don’t receive approval from anyone but myself..
Most importantly, today, right this moment, I choose to be loving to myself and all of the challenges I face and will face along the way. I choose to trust that even in those hardest of moments I MUST keep pushing on, YOU must keep pushing on, believing that no effort we put forth is ever wasted.
More often than not, even my recipes fit true to this way of thinking. It’s not always as easy as throwing a bunch of ingredients together to create a blog-worthy hit right off the bat. I get an idea in my head and it can often take me several, as in SEVERAL, tries to get it right. But I never throw in the towel. If I did I would’t have almost 200 recipes or even this blog at all! Could you imagine!? Oh the horror! Take these grain-free muffins for example. I based it loosely off of my Grain-free Peanut Butter Blender Muffins and it still took me a couple of tries to get it right. Even in my moment of failure the first time around it didn’t deter me from trying again and I’m SO glad that I did! These muffins are AMAZING! They’re stuffed with so many fresh blueberries and creamy almond butter your tastebuds will be doing a happy dance. These muffins also are great for meal prep and freeze well so you have access to a healthy snack in a pinch!
Grain-free Blueberry Almond Blender Muffins
Author: The Happy Hungry Yogi
Makes: 6 muffins
Prep time: 10 minutes
Bake time: 25 minutes
- 1 15oz can chickpeas, rinsed and drained
- 1/2 c almond butter
- 1/4 c banana, mashed
- 1/4 c unsweetened almond milk (or sub any dairy-free variety)
- 1 packet Further Foods Collagen Peptides (optional)
- 1 tsp vanilla extract
- 1/2 tsp cinnamon
- 1/4 tsp baking soda
- 1/4 tsp baking powder
- 1 c fresh or frozen blueberries (this adds a ton of berries, if you prefer less cut amount in half)
- Preheat your oven to 350F. Lightly grease or line a 6 well muffin tin.
- Add all of the ingredients to a high powdered blender, except the blueberries. Pulse until smooth.
- Divide the batter evenly amongst the muffin pan and fill each well. Spread out a bit using a spoon as the batter will be a bit thicker. Add a few additional blueberries to the top of each (optional).
- Bake for 25 minutes or until golden and center is fully cooked. Allow the muffins to cool completely before removing from the pan.
- Enjoy smothered in more almond butter- YASSS! Store any leftovers in the fridge for up to 5 days or in the freezer for an even longer shelf life.
Note: you can also stir into the batter 1/2 cup of coconut flakes for a little sumthin’ extra!