I’ve been meaning to write this entry for the past few weeks but every time I sat down to type it’s as if my mind failed to find the words and my fingers just sat motionless hovering over the keys of my laptop. It’s not too often that I come across a writer’s block. For those of you who know me I usually have a lot to say. Maybe too much at times. Though this time was different. Words, feelings, thoughts, dreams, hopes and fears sat up there waiting patiently to come out but it was as if the words themselves had jumped ship. I typed several entries just to find myself deleting it because truthfully each sounded like a jumbled mess of someone who had no idea what it meant to express themselves. You’d have thought I’d never had written a blog entry in my life. I rattled my brain over various topics trying to piece together what I wanted to say while driving to and from work, in the shower, making dinner, laying in bed at night. It started to feel as though I was forcing myself to speak words that weren’t my own. I can’t write like that. Pressure and my thoughts mix as well as oil and water. Truthfully, the words just need to flow as free as they come without force of any kind.
So I stopped.
Patience is a virtue as they say. So I decided to wait it out, hoping that by NOT thinking about it, forcing a topic of conversation or over analyzing my thoughts that maybe, just maybe some tiny bit of inspiration might surface and eventually bust at the seams to allow me the creative expression I usually have.
So, I waited…
Then it happened. I was scrolling through Instagram this afternoon and came across a picture of a quote and under it the blogger* said what it personally meant to him. It hit me like the most loving and comforting sack of bricks, if such a thing exists. I had been searching like a lone survivor on a deserted island a way to express what it was I have been trying to verbalize. Then just like a sudden ship on the horizon there it was.
“How beautiful the heart is when we have the courage to show it.”
I know I refer to the heart often in my posts, you know that vital organ that gives us life, both realistically and figuratively. There’s no wonder so many people, like myself, have so much to say about it. The Instagrammer who posted this quote went on to discuss his own personal experiences with keeping his heart safe while in relationships because he lacked the courage to fully accept and also give love in return. I think we can all agree it’s a scary thing to let our hearts loose out into the world. He then went on to note that courage is the “key” in any relationship. It requires both sides of the spectrum to share their hearts equally so that they can, hand in hand, “leap” together. That most of the time that very leaping is required even before you’re ready because in reality, who’s ever REALLY ready? It means that sometimes you’ll be required to be the first to say something or the first to act upon how you feel all while feeling like it may be the very moment you get your heart ripped from your chest. That it takes courage to say “I choose you, and I would choose you a million times, and I choose you each and every time without knowing if you’ll choose me back.”. Love isn’t contingent upon being loved back, it’s just “free”. Basically, he goes on to state that simply put, you will be scared, unsure and constantly question everything happening and that is okay because that’s “what makes a beautiful heart”…and he’s absolutely right.
We all want the same thing in the end no matter who we are, what we believe in, where we come from, our age, race, gender, whatever it is that makes us, us. We just want love in return. Real, honest, no hesitation, fairy tale-esque kind of love. As I’ve said in a previous post, the heart isn’t meant to be kept to yourself, just as much as your words aren’t either, even if you do experience a bout of writer’s block, like me. So go ahead and use your beautiful heart. There’s nothing more reassuring in a world where vulnerability is measured than to gather up the courage to love and take that leap together.
Cacao and Avocado Smoothie Bowl
Serves: 1/Prep time: 5 minutes
- 1 c unsweetened almond milk
- 1 medium frozen banana
- 1/4 c avocado
- 1 scoop vanilla vegan protein powder (I used this)
- 1 tbsp raw cacao powder (I used this)
- 2 tsp pure maple syrup
- 1 tsp cinnamon
- optional toppings: additional banana, fresh or frozen berries, chopped nuts, shredded coconut, gluten-free granola and/or chia seeds and lots of love (duh!)
- In a high powered blender combine all of the ingredients, except for toppings and blend on high until smooth (you can add more/less liquid depending on the desired thickness).
- Pour smoothie into a bowl and top as desired.
- Serve immediately and enjoy!